Here we go again. Pride doesn't want me to post. Pride is telling me it is not all that bad. Pride is telling me you have been here before so you don't have to post. Pride is screaming "DON'T POST!! DON'T POST!!." Well I am posting. I don't know if I am craving or if I am having mind games going on. I don't want to smoke, but I feel like???? I don't know how to explain it, so I need some input. This sucks!!!! How many times do I have to do this?? Tricky time for me, but I know I don't want to smoke, I just want peace. Or could it be I am fighting the surrender??
