Gimm - that's exactly how I felt when I smoked last month on my 85th day. I just felt I wanted to kick back and smoke. I did, but didn't stop with just one, I smoked a few every day for 9 days. Because of my regret of smoking even one, I knew I couldn't continue and got on yet another quit. My craves and urges have been very manageable but I constantly thought about smoking and wanted to smoke.
I've changed my attitude and stopped thinking I'm making a sacrifice because of quitting. There has to be benefits to quitting. There are no benefits to smoking.
Even though we think about smoking - we don't need to go there. Hang in there and try not to be concerned how long or when will we stop thinking about or wanting a smoke.
Sometimes I want to "pinch" someone's head off" but I know I can't-I just mumble under my breathe til the thought and desire goes away. That's what we need to do with cigarettes. Lol chuckle chuckle
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 7/21/2010 Smoke-Free Days: 19 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 285 Amount Saved: $71.25 Life Gained: Days: 2 Hrs: 19 Mins: 5 Seconds: 8
Hey Gimm, tell us, what exactly is it that you miss? The cravings that start five minutes after you have smoked a cigarette? Smelling like a gross dirty ashtray? Coughing? Choking? Dry throat, watery eyes? Having to go outside in the rain, snow, heat or storms? Pain when you breathe? Cancer. Emphasema?
I think we all get a day, now and then, where we think back longingly of the old days when we actually enjoyed a cigarette, But how many cigarettes later are we sick of it again, ten? Two?
Every time I think back to how much I liked smoking, I remind myself how much I hated it too, and how much ewasier it is to breathe now and the fact that I have saved sooooo much money by quitting.
Look to the positives Gimm, take a deep breath and be glad you aren't starting all over again!
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 3/5/2007 Smoke-Free Days: 1253 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 31,325 Amount Saved: $13,219.15 Life Gained: Days: 172 Hrs: 13 Mins: 40 Seconds: 36
Hello gimm A month late and a dollar short posting on this one but can relate to the topic. Ashley's right in saying that we need to " train our brain ". By now you're over any physical addiction so by entertaining thoughts of smoking the old brain patterns are allowed to emerge. The brain plays the same tapes ( cds ) over and over. This addiction is so incidious that it tells us that we're ok when we're really not and visa versa. The rapacious creditor looking for one last kick at the can to start the addiction all over again. I don't know about being tired of not smoking but being any kind of tired is a way back to becoming a full time smoker again. It gets easier , it gets harder , and then it gets easier again. With every battle waged and won against the committee it does get easier. When I think I'd like to relax with a smoke I think it through to where I'll be in 2 weeks or a year from now which reinforces the desire to stay smoke-free. I think of where I came from and know that I don't want to go through those first days again. It doesn't matter if it's pain wrapped in celophane in a nice package it's still pain and the price is more than I'm willing to pay. breather
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 11/11/2008 Smoke-Free Days: 635 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 31,750 Amount Saved: $15,240.00 Life Gained: Days: 115 Hrs: 21 Mins: 27 Seconds: 15
Hi, Look at all those not smoked , WOW that alot of not puffin, and making wrinkles on your upper Lip LOL, you are doing great just keep up the good quit ,Tresa My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 8/8/2002 Smoke-Free Days: 2922 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 70,128 Amount Saved: $12,272.40 Life Gained: Days: 383 Hrs: 14 Mins: 43 Seconds: 48
Gimm, I think we all miss it. If we didn't miss it at all we would probably never come back to this site. This is an awful addiction that we have but I'm sure the day will come when we hardly ever think of smoking. Hope it's soon lol......keep the quit
Memie
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 1/25/2010 Smoke-Free Days: 194 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,940 Amount Saved: $776.00 Life Gained: Days: 23 Hrs: 18 Mins: 45 Seconds: 17
Cristinas is so right, many quitters if not all go through this time period you are describing. It is hard, but you can overcome it. Remind yourself why you quit and how ugly and unpleasant cigarette smoking is. Right now when you remember smoking you may think of it as something you used to relax with, celebrate with, etc. You think of it as a great thing. Try to change this thought process. I know it is hard but you can do this. Think of it as nasty, stinky, polluting poison. That really is what it is, now you just have to train your brain to see it that way. What do you hate about smoking?