Dutchy, have never met you before, but I think that's unimportant. I'm sorry about your boyfriend's illness and the losses you are experiencing. You're right, nothing is so bad that you have to smoke. I lost a quit that was a little longer than the one you have when my sister was murdered twenty years ago. Now look at my quit meter. I have smoked pretty much all of those twenty years. Hang in there. Everything gets better with time, and some effort.
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 5/1/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 122
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,416
Amount Saved: $1,323.70
Life Gained:
Days: 13 Hrs: 9 Mins: 2 Seconds: 45