Hey Ginette. I've watched you struggling over the last few days and I know what you're going through. You say "I hope I do it this time". Sorry, but "hope" ain't going to get you through this one. Replace "hope" with "will" ... and mean it. Look deep into your mind and KNOW that you can do it.
I fought against my quit so hard in the first few weeks, I was an absolute misery to live with. After all, I didn't HAVE to quit, I only did it because my husband had just had a triple bypass. I resented him, I felt like I had "given up" something dear to me. The poor man talked me through many a night while I wailed, screamed, moaned about how hard things were for me. I went through the stages of grief - denial, bargaining, anger etc. Then, around two weeks in, AAAAHHHHH ... this fantastic feeling of serenity happened. I had reached acceptance (I think some people on here call it the beach - whatever, it is a really nice place to be). It's hard to explain, but it was like my whole body just gave this tremendous sigh of relief and relaxed properly for the first time in about 25 years.
I realised that quitting can be done and it doesn't have to be so painful - it is all a matter of your mindset. I sat down and made up a pro/con list for smoking. Try it, it's quite hard to find anything much to write on the pro side but the con side gets big really quickly! Flip everything you've been thinking around - you are not "missing out", you are gaining freedom. You haven't lost anything - in fact, you've gained so much time, you'll hardly know how to fill it (make plans). You never enjoyed smoking, what you enjoyed was the temporary relief of your withdrawal symptoms. Read up on addiction, read up on nicotine, read up on how the tobacco companies have made millions peddling death (and we bought it), read up on smoking-related diseases. Do whatever you need to do to firm your resolution in your mind.
Studies show that 58 year old women with names beginning with G are the most determined, stubborn people on this earth ... use that power for the good side Ginette (well, okay I made that last bit up ... lol).
From Down Under ... Kia Kaha (stay strong).
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]9/23/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 78
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,950
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $936.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7