You just decribed Thursday and Saturday for me.
I was fine early on in both days, but toward the early afternoon, my mind started wandering and then went into a short panic mode. Thoughts of death, horror, the current stress of hearing about politics all the time.
Then I had to go to work tonight, which is where I am at now.
I had to take two valium tonight. 1 at 4:45 and another at 9 p.m. I know that is not too bad, but I usually, most days only need a half.
My mind just kept wandering and it was hard to stop.
I know it was the stress of work, not much sleep and being inundated with politics so often.
I really need to turn my TV off more often.
When I am at the gym I am fine 100%. But I hear so much about how terror is possible and the hate being spewed by both political parties. I used to enjoy politics, but now it's turned into such a sham.
Then to top it off, I am totally off anti-depressants for the first time in years.
I have been doing really well, but then I get these days where it feels like I am gonna have a big anxiety attack.
I mean, I did have an anxiety attack today and it nearly turned into a bad panic attack. But I picked myself up and went down to my car and sat there for a little while until the valium kicked in. I am stable now.
I guess the main problem is my mind racing. This happens every so often. It started racing this afternoon and then the feelings of losing control, head exploding, etc. I hate crazy thoughts.
I must also add that following hurricane Frances, I had a similar feeling. Now with Jeanne a week removed, this may be the residual anxiety and post traumatic stress from that.
I must add that none of this is new to me. Just a pain when it returns.
OK, now that is it. Anyone feel like comforting me? LOL.
I need it.
David
