((((((((((S)))))))))))
The depression, IMO, is the worst part of the whole quit process. It can be so constant, so "chipping away" at our resolve.
The strength you are showing your daughters is commendable. Coming here to vent/dump/cry is the right thing to do. That's what we're here for.
I understand your feelings of "lost my fags". We've all felt that way before. That feeling, coupled with the depression, are Ol' Nic's worst weapons against our quits. You just have to remember that you have lost nothing good, but have parted company with an evil that had no more intention than to kill you.
Of all your changes, regardless of what they may be, this one is by far the greatest.
Oh, and your daughter that's going away to school? She's no further than a phone call or an e-mail. She can still be with you, even though you can't actually touch her.
Congratulations on 12 smoke-free days, S. You really are doing great! :)
Keep up the good quit!
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 466
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,329
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1770.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 86 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3