Arizona, I, too, have a daily and weekly and montly fluctuation as well as the seasonal. I can so relate. I never know what time, where, or when it's gonna hit (the worst). Recognizing and ACCEPTING THIS seasonal component will help me to better deal with it. Recognizing and accepting the others has made a difference. Sort of learn to roll with the punches (no pun intended).
Ashley, as you know I've discussed with my psychiatrist and therapist the possibility of light therapy. I have a large bedroom (biggest room in the whole house :) ). It would be quite expensive according to my psychiatrist to get enough, I can not remember the word, to make it sufficient to gain anything from it. I keep thinking if I sell my home this year and buy a smaller home or at least with an average size bedroom then I wouldn't have to have so many machines. He calculated and it would take 4 for that space to make it "work". I did a little research on it and at the time what he told me was supported by what I read; however, that was a month or two back and whoosh, there it went.
My therapist didn't offer any suggestions other than to bear with, get as much sunlight as possible, keep doing what I'm doing with my daily rituals of self-treatment (the exercise, meditation, blah blah blah) Keep up the CBT. I'm sort of hit and miss on all of it right now. Called my boss in the landscaping business and told her I am ready to go to work! Hopefully soon. I went and got my B12 shot (timely) thinking that would give me an energy boost - hmmm, sitting and waiting on that.
Wish the sleep would get straightened out. I'm working on it. I think that would help. when the circadian rhythms get off; it doesn't help at all. The anxiety is less, depression stable. (not getting any worse). So I will be grateful for that.
I got asked by my boss at the A/D tx facility if I'd like to move to another position when a new facility is opened up. Wow, a boost to the ego. I, of course, would have to apply and be interviewed. But that's a good indication. She's the second one in the higher hierarchy to ask if I'd be interested. :) That would occur this fall. That tells me I need to figure out something for next year!!!!!
I have three weekend outings planned - this weekend going to watch my son (adult) play in a fundraising basketball game to raise money for a mentoring program in which he has a mentoree. He asked me to watch him at his trial on Tuesday. He's asked me before, told me he was "ready", but never given me a time and date. I'll be sitting on the front row. I'm excited about that. The first weekend outing is next weekend, going to play golf, hang out with friends at a rustic cabin in a rural state park near here. Second weekend is some friends from high school (all female) are getting together for our first ever reunion in a local larger metropolitan area. Hope to have some fun there. I was thrilled they invited me as you probably remember I got pregnant in high school and really didn't hang around with any one except my son, my junior and senior year, so honored they thought to ask me. We were all friends; it's just different activities back then.
The third weekend is in April, It's a woman's Christian Retreat in Branson, Mo. I'm excited about that. Second time I've gone and looking forward to it again. Of course, my brain says you don't want to go (that must be the left side) cause the right side is saying you are going whether you want to or not. I have reservations and/or money invested in
