I saw the therapist lady yesterday ( still cant believe I need a therapist ) she reminded me it took time for the meds to work. I just need to slow down and be more diligent in my activities. I guess I was a little flighty, i was feeling to good and got off track. I didnt really know how to start my life over, so really wasnt??? That make sense, going thru the motions and not really doing anything. I think I need to slow down and focus. I know I cant be happy by making everyone else happy, cause thats what Ive been trying to do all my life and it didnt work. All I did was ruin all my relationships. i do need to find out how to make me happy, that I dont know yet.
I think the blur thing was from the meds, I guess, I just havnt been me, whoever that is. I hate being lost and alone.
So I took notes and I just need to get on track with important stuff, no more farmville! LOL
So I hope if I stay on task, I will be better, lately I havnt.