I thought there would be a million other posts to push this down to complete forgottenness.
and so much has happened to me, the rigt meds to take care of the highs and the lows. I had so many projects come and go. And now, I have one that is a challenge even with the ugly h/r remarks !!! And a great boss for another 6 months -that I kept clueless to my condition-.
And kids that are growing like weeds and challenging me like I never thought possible!
I am so happy for you Wildcat, you deserve some happiness and it sounds like you are on your way. Keep up the good progress and let us know how things are going.
Hugs to you and your family and enjoy your vacation.
well... I have noticed that I need a lot less sleep! I used to be in bed at 8 pm and falling asleep at 20 on the kiddies story, so there was just 0.5 per night... and my son was the one to be short changed more often there... Now I can get through their stories and !!! even read with some feeling!!!! and voices !!! and comentary !!! then read some of my story till 10pm then be ready for my day at 6am.
I have the energy to get through my work at the job and get home and do some house stuff at the end of the day, while still being civilized! And now I am preparing the camping equipement for the vacations in 12 days... the inflatable matresses are clean and in condition, the sleeping bags and pillows don't smell funny... the lifejackets still fit are the clips are strong, the sand toys... you know the drill with kamping with cids -oh sorry- camping with kids... an inexpensive vacation that means a bit of preparation !!! But for the first time in 6 years it is a pleasure and I am just as excited as my 6 yr old... but I do not have my Ariel bag stuffed with 1000 bathing suits and one pyjama for 2 weeks...
Learning Reiki sounds like an incredible goal you have set for yourself. Please keep us posted on how things go for you when you take the class. I am sure other members are interested in hearing about your experience and how you have found it helpful.
Glad to hear you are still keeping up with the mood charts and your sleep schedules. Have you noticed any recent changes in your day-to-day moods and sleeping patterns? What can you attribute these changes to?
Let us know if there is anything else we can do for you and continue to keep us posted on how you are doing.
THis job pays the bills and the loan and has benefits so the meds are taken care of...
So I can focus on my meditation and centering my energy. I want to learn Reiki this fall. My close aunt is a Master and is starting to teach ... so I will be part of her first class. And she needs me to be an objective critic in the class for feed-back. So as I learn i need to be alert to her shortcomings as a teacher!!! And maybe start a practice ?? (Imagine a wall decorated with the material to make a sari and a massage table with a thick red blanket a fountain a warm orange glow from a salt lamp too cool...)
Also, with interest rates quite low I am pushing my husband to negotiate with his father now. We need a really good price for the duplex we live in to be able to buy it, redo the electricity and plumbing and sink supports into the bedrock all on one morgage. And see what we will do with his brother upstairs... all very gentlily so as to not scare my husband with too much work he has no idea how to do (I am the manual one).
I am in the calender sections of my bipolar agenda, so I am thinking of mood charts... and sleep schedules, and ... a bunch of other things ... and maybe the center that I went to for classes might like to be associated with this project??? It would make us both a bit of money !?!?...
So... all this is thanks to an up in the dosing in my medications. I am on effexor, an anti depressant since 2005 and stable since 2006. Since 2008 I am taking an non-typical mood stabiliser, topiramate. I have just doubled the dose and am at 200mg since Thursday the 2nd of July... (25 mg per week from 100mg to 200mg). I needed to go because I was still shifting too quickly and too much. I have been better since 4 days on the 75 mg...
I went to see my therapist yesterday what a wonderful woman she is, even if she only speaks one language. We spoke about how I was sooo sleepy on the meds when they were being raised and how this time the management seemed to realise the issues of liability involved... no thanks to me... I am the one who described drowsy, not as "ah I need a coffee" but "wow I just woke up and had four beer before getting into my car" .
We took a moment to remember that there are laws in place to protect ME and they are not very old. So employers are skitchish when a good employee annonces Tadum- mental illness - cha chink. No one knows the illness and even less Which!?! manifestations will i have... this time... next time... when is next time. And they are paid to do a job, and they have have been dealing reasonably... I have to remind them now to back off. I am better.
Also we were talking about me being ready to move on to better projects... I have consolidated my debts. YUP !! no more credit cards! just one personal loan that I will get rid of in 3 Years. Hypomania and "almost money" is not a good mix!!! So this will get me back to a stable footing, financially. But i had to argue with the bank to lower my c-card limit. Hey! my illness got me into trouble, I am here to get out of it and you want to leave me my bottle and the poison!!! We discussed my meditation corner in the garden that is furnished thanks to the Moving Festival. And ...
We talked about Bliss (félicite). Joseph Campbell spoke to Bill Moyers about Follow your Bliss. It is the Happiness that does not depend on anything outside of you. And inside of me I am happy. My evolution makes me happy. My Spirituality makes me happy. The thoughts and ideas and plans (my creativity) I have make me happy. So I have to remember to bring this happiness from home to work and not the isolation and frustation from work to home...
