Hopefully this message doesn't get lost in la la land like my last one.
I have made it through week one of group, it still makes no sense to me:
1. You have to ask for medication in front of the whole group,
2. They will withhold psychotropic medications if you do not do exactly what you are told to do,
3. People insist on calling me by that name, even if I blow up at them,
4. Volleyball is still not fun,
5. Aerobics and relaxation is not relaxing, it is terrifying and painful,
6. Projectives makes me feel like I am in kindergarten and I take the "project" literally not with imagination,
7. Communications is total common sense and if people don't know it they really need to be ther,
8. Large group is intimidating, with everyone listening to everyone else's problems (nothing new for me) with 4 judges at the front of the room and the creeper (you know the guy on the bus who makes everyone uncomfortable and sits beside you and spreads his legs just to make you squirm) sits in the group, interrupting and interjecting in his monotone voice.,
9. No-one tells me how this will benefit me, I am told wait and see.
Good things about group,.......
1. I don't have to be home until late, ha ha
2. I get 1/2 hour to be by myself, so long as no-one finds me and tries to make friends with me,
3. yep, that's about it.
Now all I have to do is gain the courage to beg for some anxiolytics and then maybe I can stop vomitting and participate in the group so that I can be a good little girl and do what I am told.
On the upside, my hubby fixed his own truck all by himself this weekend, (I didn't have to do it, yay). My hubby has lost a total of 87 pounds we are scheduling his gastric sleeve with his surgeon on November 30th barring any bad test results, I got a free flu shot (and refills on all of my prescriptions from my GP, she doesn't believe it is right to withhold medication from patients when they need it). Tat's almost healed up enough to take a nice picture and post it.
Group tonight, I am going to psych myself up to beg for the anxiolytics and hopefully they earn a small degree of my trust by providing them to me, and if they do, then I will advise them that I got my refills from my GP.
Have a great day everyone.
. The drama and tv group sound absolutely horrific, people pushing you to acknowledge things you have no ideas about, people watching you and scrutinizing every little thing about what you say, how you react and what you look like. The aerobics is supposed to help you learn the signs of stress and healthy ways to deal with stress, this is just stressful thinking about jumping around in front of complete strangers who will laugh at your butt as it jiggles up and down and getting sweating and more exhausted. I already know the signs of stress and the supposed healthy ways to deal with it (I have tried numerous things to no avail, aside from b@#ching).
