Howdy and thanks for the responses.
Cammy, I don't think we are lazy....I think it's a side effect of the depression that we experience. I have not had a traumatic brain injury but have worked with people who have experience them and it often results in changes to personality. This may be reflected in your lack of motivation, depression, etc. I personally think that the lack of motivation is intrinsic in the dx of depression and that it is a struggle to not feel overwhelmed by any task at hand. I admire your ability to work from home. I tried that on one occasion (pre-depression) and I do not have the self-discipline to do so. I either worked too hard or not hard enough depending on what else was going on in my life.
Ralph, I know the difficulties I have with focus, concentration, and decision-making are definitely different pre and post depression. I cannot read a book, barely a chapter though I work on that daily. I can read snippets and try to read the Reader's Digest (written on a 6th grade level) over the course of a month. I used to be able to read it in one sitting. That is one of the things I miss the most reading and studying and research. I agree with Diva - an excellent point!
Wildcat, you are so right, I am labeled with the best of folks!
Diva, thanks for the hug (I needed that). My problem with work is that though I am cutting back to 4 hours the productivity is expected to be the same. I don't know how to deal with that. Talking with people is not something I can cut out, I guess the documentation will suffer.
Thanks to all for the encouragement and support - what a wonderful thing!