Does anyone have severe problems with uncontrollable emotional pain, hurt or rage but have problems getting it out in a healthy way. When someone hurts me, it's like I'm overcome with deep immobolizing emotional pain that makes life very hard to deal with. It's like if I ever start crying, I won't stop. I have a problem with rejection, feel like people take their love away from me when they're angry, avoid confrontations at all costs, but it seems like it's always me that pays for the emotions involved. I'm afraid to let people know how things are because I'm afraid they won't understand. I've had depression for 31 years, been in therapy for 11 years and it's still hard to cope. There is such stigma regarding depression and all of it's components. It's like I have to pretend that things are fine when they're really not and that turmoil just eats at me inside. Just wondering if anyone else feels like this sometimes.
