Davit,
I made it through the night, until I woke up from a bad dream early this morning. As I laid there trying to go back to sleep I kept thinking of the bad dream and felt my heart start to race as I was falling back asleep. Good news was, I know what I was thinking, found a positive, filed it and sent that panic attack to well, it rhymes with that.
This morning I made some phone calls and am trying to get an appointment with a psychiatrist. My family Doctor has been great, by letting me approach this holistically. But also recommended I see one when the panic attacks started back in June. I've came a long way since then with the help of this CBT and forum, but the nightly panic attacks are making me so tired during the day. I feel like my energy has been zapped. I think having someone to talk to about inner personal matters would be helpful.
I want to be where you are with this. I want to be 100% panic free. If it wasn't for the stupid nightly ones now, I think I would already be 90% there. Who knows, I might make it through the entire night tonight panic free. Then I'll be 91% there.. :)
P.S. I made it to the acceptance part of this. I accepted it yesterday. I have a Panic Disorder. I looked in the mirror and said it out loud to myself. Then I said, you don't have to let it control you, You control it.